The struggle

My whole life I been struggling to be a normal person.I never felt normal like anyone else.I always felt that I was some one looking in instead of out.People think that I am poor and lame.I never had friends before.I live my life on a path that is alone.I spend my time in my room in my bed under the sheets sleep.I wish I could hang out and socialize with others,but I dont have the money nor the humor.I want a change to my life.I am getting old and want to explore the world.I hope my dreams come true.